I know I know Why step 5...Well no one wants to admit all this stuff to themselves let alone someone else right...But I found that when I did this the first time & then every time since I have found Freedom...The baggage I have been carrying for so long I can finally set down...I thought I was a horrible person after my 4th step but I guess God saw fit to put me with a sponsor that when I told him all I had done...He just shrugged his shoulders & said it wasn't that bad...Wasn't that bad...I had drank & drug myself into a stupor over this stuff...But now...now that it is behind me I no longer have to pack it around & try to bury it in a bottle...Thank you God for the 5th step...

On my way to embrace the 5th step,I can say that only because I have done one before and truly understand the freedom that is available to be experienced with this step!Just writing the fourth step and realizing how irrational some of my resentments are provides a huge relief as well.The knowledge of myself and the reasons why my brain thinks the way it does,wow,there is an answer to the why!I love the qoute"more will be revealed" because I can breathe knowing that I do not have to have all of the answers,they will be given when needed!All i really have to do is remain a clear channel-and that is what my sober life gives me-a way to be a clear channel!

I am enjoying Step 1 because I can concede to my inner-most self that I am an addict. I have relapsed several times and every time I did I would come back to AA and concede some more and then relapse and then come back to concede so more. I honestly feel that I have conceded to my inner-most self and that ONLY God can keep me sober this day. I canNOT keep myself sober - I have tried!